fears and decisions.

So many thoughts
Flow through my mind
Constant  flows of emotion
Peace my heart cant find

Dead dreams are my nightmares
The plans of what once was
All that pointless effort
All for a lost cause

Still up to my old tricks
Makes my stomach churn
Wishing i could fake it
Secretly hope for the world to burn

Im always on my knees
Bending to anothers will
I wish i was strong enough to controll it
To fight but not to kill

Im worried the day will come
Where i finally snap
Hurt someone that dosent deserve it
And the devil will slowly clap

I tried to love to much
Listened to only a few
Well fuck this, fuck him, fuck our plans and our future
But most of all fuck you.