Sorry Isn't Good Enough.

I have come to realise,
What a coward I've been.
Overwhelmed by the hype,
And teenage life,
That has slowly beaten me down.
I should have listened.
And I never should have said those things.
I'm sorry.

I was flicking back,
Through snapshots in my mind,
Trying to find a time,
I was happy.
I was shocked to find,
At the back of my mind,
The people I left behind.
And I'm sorry.

I became dismissive.
Fake smiles and dirty looks,
Were allies of mine.
They replaced you.
Your originality and quirks.
I swapped late night talks,
For cheap kicks.
And I'm sorry.

Call this my second attempt,
At being a better person.
But I yearn for happiness,
And crave affection,
Just like I always did.
This is my confession,
A chance at redemption,
And I'm sorry.

My hypocrisy is a talent.
I cannot say anything,
To justify my actions,
And callous words.
Blinded by petty drama,
And fashion disasters.
Selfish doesn't come close,
And sorry isn't good enough.