To a Younger Me

Confident-lonely,
Anorexic-chubby girl
Over-anxious, unambitious
Never promiscuous girl
People-pleaser, guy teaser,
Invisible-to-all-who-sees-her-girl

Dreamer-skeptic,
Lazy-athletic,
Everything and nothing girl.
"Wear this to the party!
Why-won't-you-get-naughty girl?
Let me bite and bruise you
I don't mean to abuse you, girl
You are looking way too thin--
That's what you said back then
And then I got too fat
Honesty-- what's wrong with that?"

Weak and solid
Neat freak and squalid girl
Your life is rotted
Girl, you need to change.
Stop listening to
What men think you should do
And start living, living as you.

Over-privileged, arrogant image
Miss only-child-rich-white girl
Non-confronting, slowly stunting,
Everything's-a-scrimmage-girl
Tell me: Are you what they say?

Mystified, somewhat snide
Never-say-you're-sorry-girl
Unexpressed, perhaps possessed-
By-a-terrifying-demon-girl
You are complex
And complete
And nothing-can-defeat-
You-girl.

In your own time and way,
You will desensitize:
Words thrown around to say
What is meant to chastise.
Yes, perhaps their words are true
Accepting them is wise--
Only when you accept contradictions
Can you revise--
Only then can you create something-
Not just as one's plaything
pulled on puppet strings
But your own entity.

Create your own identity.
Remember: you are what you see.