another trespass amigo swan song

i remember  
the snow turned our hands to fire as we balled and threw it at every smiling face  
 
i remember the drums and wings and light like wind  
that danced the leaves  
 
i remember thinking you will never be mine  
 
when you first arrived  
 
always and only  
the worlds  
 
the wedding of a thousand lady bugs in the old mountain church  
 
the jellyfish harem and the stinging of flesh  
 
the false remedy of a urine bath  
 
the truth that  
lemonade or a feather and smoke will always work  
 
as long as ten minutes  
has passed  
 
the smashed  
glass on the vending machine  
 
the paranoid rush to eat all  
the evidence in  
one night  
 
the cigarette the russian  
the blow up doll  
and a photo worth 10,000 words mailed to my wife  
 
 
the betrayed promise not  
to throw up in the car  
 
the second wedding  
lost keys on the beach  
and a pair of pants  
 
the sign over the button  
only for emergencies  
 
the clanging alarm bell  
that woke an entire motel  
 
the sunset the river  
the cemetery  
 
the cop-van the camera  
the crutches  
 
the cliffs the quarry the school roof  
 
another round of judges  
and places promised  
to never go again  
    
and now its not us  
that trespass  
 
but death  
in mutant cells  
 
run riot in  
the brain