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WHAT MAKES U STRONG - meandering thoughts on life after deconversion
When I see a
blank screen,
it almost makes me
want to
just think something
more to say.
Then when I . . . my mind
has not prepared anything
ahead of time . . .
I’m full of hesitation
and delay.
But the signs are all around me,
literally,
whether I’m feeling super-confident
or feeling skidishly.
I scratch my head,
yank my hair,
rub my eyebrows,
pluck a nosehair.
But at least I’m self-aware.
I could be busting my ass,
and working harder.
But everybody says:
“Don’t sweat too much;
work smarter!”
Yeah, I totally get it!
And that’s what I’m
trying to do,
trying to implement.
I’m not going to be
just sitting around
awaiting something Valhalla-sent.
And I’ll avoid feeling reticent.
1:11 (pm)
and there’s no such thing
as Heaven.
And actually, Hell too
is a work of fiction.
Along with an empty tomb . . .
& a substitutionary crucifixion.
Yeah, I’ve changed a lot
since I’ve stopped subscribing
to the local style, version of
the world cult.
And I’m working on some
new things
And . . . and, as a result,
there’s a lot of, a helluva lot of
lifestyle changes.
Some things I had to just
let go, let go, let go.
And new things I had to
just lean on, lean on, lean on.
I had to let go some of the storybook
sagas
and lean on
factual things like,
more scientific.
I’m looking forward to some of the
great things that lie ahead.
while still enjoying the moment,
and all the wonderful memories in my head.
Yeah, it's kind of weird
to be so self-conscious,
and yet I want to avoid being pompous.
Just be realistic, down-to-earth,
& seek out of a fertile
imagination to give birth,
to some jævla cool invention,
some f*ing awesome concoctions,
some outstanding creations!
While at the same time,
keeping some great relations,
vunderbar relations!
With family, friends & connections.
Well, I'd better call it quits before
this just gets WAAAY too long!
In conclusion:
Seek to compensate your weaknesses,
and augment what makes you strong!
blank screen,
it almost makes me
want to
just think something
more to say.
Then when I . . . my mind
has not prepared anything
ahead of time . . .
I’m full of hesitation
and delay.
But the signs are all around me,
literally,
whether I’m feeling super-confident
or feeling skidishly.
I scratch my head,
yank my hair,
rub my eyebrows,
pluck a nosehair.
But at least I’m self-aware.
I could be busting my ass,
and working harder.
But everybody says:
“Don’t sweat too much;
work smarter!”
Yeah, I totally get it!
And that’s what I’m
trying to do,
trying to implement.
I’m not going to be
just sitting around
awaiting something Valhalla-sent.
And I’ll avoid feeling reticent.
1:11 (pm)
and there’s no such thing
as Heaven.
And actually, Hell too
is a work of fiction.
Along with an empty tomb . . .
& a substitutionary crucifixion.
Yeah, I’ve changed a lot
since I’ve stopped subscribing
to the local style, version of
the world cult.
And I’m working on some
new things
And . . . and, as a result,
there’s a lot of, a helluva lot of
lifestyle changes.
Some things I had to just
let go, let go, let go.
And new things I had to
just lean on, lean on, lean on.
I had to let go some of the storybook
sagas
and lean on
factual things like,
more scientific.
I’m looking forward to some of the
great things that lie ahead.
while still enjoying the moment,
and all the wonderful memories in my head.
Yeah, it's kind of weird
to be so self-conscious,
and yet I want to avoid being pompous.
Just be realistic, down-to-earth,
& seek out of a fertile
imagination to give birth,
to some jævla cool invention,
some f*ing awesome concoctions,
some outstanding creations!
While at the same time,
keeping some great relations,
vunderbar relations!
With family, friends & connections.
Well, I'd better call it quits before
this just gets WAAAY too long!
In conclusion:
Seek to compensate your weaknesses,
and augment what makes you strong!
Published 2nd Aug 2016
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3rd Aug 2016 2:17am
Dude. this is really fucking good.. at parts of it your voice reminded me of Terence Mckenna, which in and of itself is awesome. I think that your presentation in the video is very good. I questioned if you wrote this first, or recorded your voice and then wrote down what you said. This, I think, is a good thing because with a lot of videos with poetry being performed (like mine) i lose that off the cusp vibe that you captured so well. On top of that you have some powerful words in here. I like that it seems like a stream of thoughts with bits of rhyming thrown in. It doesn't seem forced at all. Bravo sir and welcome do DUP!
