Cheers

A toast to the love that will never be expressed
A love that will live forever hidden and suppressed
And though I know I will eventually move on
Our love will never die it’s had a hold on my heart for too long
This pen and pad will speak my truth
With no regrets since this will never be seen by you
Man…How could you ever break my heart?
Everyone knew your secret, but I was left in the dark
All you had to do was tell me the truth
But you chose to use our communication as an excuse
I gave you my all or at least that’s what I believed
Living in a fairytale world not knowing I was being deceived

Funny thing is…I still love you
No matter how much I fight it, it still sneaks through
It’s a struggle I’ll battle for the rest of my life
To leave behind teenage dreams of being your wife
Yeah right like that shit was ever really gonna take place
Especially knowing I’d forever feel like you lied to my face
So many years of what I thought was love
Thanking God for what was sent from above
Never had really considered us coming to an end
Or having to give up everything and try to go back to being your friend

But how the fuck could I do that?
Knowing that I’d rip my heart out my chest if it meant having you back
But its fuck me….I guess that’s the thanks I get
For going all in with someone, while still apparently being so easy to forget
And my dumb ass thought that I was special
Thinking our love was nothing short of fucking exceptional
I can’t remain bitter…just have to accept it like you did
It was puppy love and we were nothing more than kids
Hold on…What the fuck am I saying?
I’m grown now and our time together is still replaying
Wondering if you still love me like you use to
If your heart yearns for me as mine does for you

Okay, fuck it I’m confusing myself
I hate you…I love you…I don’t want anyone else
Do you know how hard it is to let you go?
Maybe I’ll throw myself into another relationship or become a hoe
Ha! Know I’m lying ‘cause that’s not for me
But it is time to accept that we were never meant to be
How the fuck did I get hung up on my high school sweetheart
Probably because you were my first everything didn’t think we’d ever fall apart
But I must admit…I was childish as hell back then
Even if we’d stayed together through your “issues” we’d soon come to an end

Guess it all worked out and you leaving me was for the best
I loved a great individual and will never settle for less
May as well say I slit a vein and bled on this page
Expelling all of my love, hate, confusion, and rage
This is goodbye to you, finally closing the door
And will speak of my feelings for you never more

Warm Wishes,
To The Love That Succumbed To Reality
May You Never Be Forgotten