My Devils Dance

Inside my head I feel myself slipping
In my soul I know that I am broken
What is it that has made me different
Is it all the words that remain unspoken

I look into everyone’s eyes for answers
But few know the highways that brought me here
So without asking a single question
The world had spun a whole nother year

How do I replace what isn't missing
I cannot buy what is not sold
Though my body is quite young
My soul is getting very old

How does one find the strength
To just smile and laugh
When told where you went wrong
And they don't even know the half

I just need somewhere to rest
A place to lay my tired head
I have lived way beyond my years
That goes without being said

The real question on my mind today
Is how many years do I have left
Have I damned myself to the fires of hell
Is there enough time for me to repent

Am I truly in my heart sorry for my actions
Would I not do them again if given the chance
Repentance is futile for my soul has been blackened
With my demons I will forever dance