Jada's World

Living with leeches
Instead of blood,feeding on my energy
My life slowly drained
But somehow I'm still living
Looking at images
Every smile looks pained
How close I grew to love you
Even though we were estranged
Grew so much closer
Even though we were distant
Through the highest tides
I found myself still swimming
Drowning
But savoring every breath I could take
With you I started to feel
Life is what you create
But I've tumbled now
My structure rearranged
Behind the gates of hell
I found myself detained
My pillows have tear stains
Every second, sobs rack through my body
Security becomes insecurity
Because you've no longer got me
Alone now
How I always end up
But watch me preach,watch me defend
As a soldier of love
Not really a soldier
Too weak,defenseless
Nigga crawls through my sheets
And takes away my defenses
Such a pretty girl though
Her body's a ten
Crushed and blackened insides
When you get close enough to peer in
Look at her...
Sends messages then constantly contradicts them
Plays the villain in some stories
But in others,the victim
Just a crazy,mad girl
Trying to play the world without knowing the rules
She tries to play the role of the clown
As well as playing the fool
But it never ends well
Feels like she's in a personal hell
At night, she cries in her sleep
Wake up and her eyes have swelled
She stopped touching herself
Disgusted because her body isn't hers
She sometimes ask God
Why everyone has to hurt her
When she can't stand the heat
The devil turns it up a notch
And she loses her mind
Ends up on suicide watch
Yeah she's crazy
With every right to be
Everyone takes from her
She's met every thief
She's died already
Such a long time ago
From the first time that nigga was in her
With his hand around her throat
That is death..