My Best Friend

You are my best friend
You know me the best
You have seen the worst of me
And love me anyway
I know you do

I could think that you do not love me
Since you choose alcohol over me
Over and over again
I could think that you love alcohol more
That could be true
But
I know deep in my heart that you love me
And do not desire to hurt me

But

You do

It hurts you see
Because you are my best friend
The one person who knows me the best
The person that makes me laugh
The person that I like to play softball with
The person that I love to beat and hate to lose
At “Shoot Em Up” with

The one person that I am planning my future with
A little home on a little piece of property
Half Cut Teas on the front porch of our little haven
Enjoying the view
Watching our daughter fall in love
Get married
Spoiling our grandkids down the road
Enjoying life with my best friend

Each time you fall to the Steel Reserve can
I am not sure if my heart breaks a little bit more
Or gets a little more numb
Hopes of a future with you hangs in the balance

Hope
I keep hoping
Keep believing that this time it will be different
I am sure that you do as well
If I keep hoping and keep believing in a future with you
It is a gamble
You see, I could be old and lonely with no life partner
Because I gave my life waiting for you
Or
I could move on now
Cut the ties and pray God has
Another life partner to
Make plans and dreams for the future with

You are my first love
You are my best friend
I desire the best for you and never want to hurt you
But
I cannot stop drinking for you

We have no future if you drink
I am not much of a gambling person
But I have been gambling the last 22 years
Do I continue to gamble on you
Or do I calculate my losses
Lick my wounds
And
Move
on?