The internal conflict

How could I think these demons could leave me,
When it's really the demons that conceived me,
And it's my heart that deceives me,
My mind is like the waters of the deep sea,
Dive down dive down dive down,
Keep going deeper until you drown,
Angels try to hand me the crown,
They tell me to do good they tell me to do right,
Is there any end in sight?
In this world I feel like a blight,
Heavenly hosts reaching out in the night,
They tell me to spread my wings and just take flight,
But all I've got is bruised and broken feathers,
Charred remains of an Angels wings keep me tethered,
To this planet,
I can't stand it,
My soul they demand it,
You gotta make a choice,
Follow the Devils voice,
Or make it to heaven and rejoice,
The pearly gates and judgement,
Life is just testing my temperament,
So why do I feel like I'm sinking in cement?
Oh yeah, Cause money spent on sin isn't always money well spent.