Fighting For Memories

 
Fighting For Memories

chaining me to this solitary confinement
whispering relentlessly, I pray for silence
brick by brick, I build a wall of seclusion
Eyes stitched shut by evil delusions
Tricked and tempted by his shiny illusions
He knows the way in, my biggest weakness
Depression, anxiety, pain, I feel hopeless
My continual search for complete and utter numbness
I just can't take feeling so fucking worthless
Empty promises floating on big white clouds
my dreams lay around me, disemboweled
Short lived euphoria, flash backs to happiness
what i took for granted haunting me, I'm trapped in this
A reoccurring roundabout of what it felt like to breathe
High on the friction of skin against steel strings
My jagged edges fitting it's smooth wooden curves
soul mates made from the same ghostly Birch
I hold up the glass ball, the room is silent
A chuckle erupts, menacing, violent
You're so pathetic, try and defy me!
Fated to eternal disassociated despondency
Shattering the glass, I hear him, "OBEY ME!"
You broke me, abused me, you're the one who made me
You created inside me a strength, an idiosyncrasy
Now it's my turn to chuckle at what I now see
a pathetic, decrepit demon cowering at MY feet