MY SWEETEST DOWNFALL

1
Your eyes had spoken
Of the whole you – inside and out;
Transference initialized.
Your features and the whole
Of you was like a program
Loaded in my system.
Days after day one,
You were no longer a habit.
Instead, a routine more than
A command, just as same as
Breathing.
What I breathed were strands
Of desire to be with you.
2
You were like the song
Of Pink and Nate.
You fixed those parts of me
That weren’t all that pretty.
You made me embrace
My imperfections, even
Poured your acceptance.
I’ve fallen for you, the
Whole you.
3
My decision was twinned with
Risks of losing vis-à-vis gaining.
We were always on the rocks
Of breaking, struggling, giving
Up. I stopped falling in love
For then I started to fall
Down along with the pieces of me.
4
There was no longer me and you.
There was no longer you and another.
I let you fit your pieces
To the places it should take you.
You were on an invi-mode
Until you were tracked nowhere.
I slept with tears and woke up
With tears…for years.
I am falling.
Painful love had been ebbing
A downfall in silver lining.
5
Yes, I’ve fallen:
Fell in love;
Fell in pain;
But now had risen.
My eyes were open –
Open for another journey.
This time I am firm.
Five more minutes,
I’m heading on the subway
With you, we’ll breakaway.
…of rocking and killing hopes only…
…of being swept away swept under killing emotions…
Bitter-sweet love rain.
Today, under this crying clouds
You remain to be my sweetest
Downfall.
6
I surrender
Oblivion failed me in burying
Those years of ‘I guess?’