bones by the water

I try , but why ?
given some rope
you tie your own noose
choke your self and die
it's suicide
truly a waste of life
and I have no idea why
understanding dumb I can never do
it's stupidity stunts my mind growth
quotes seem to disappear like smoke
no jokes
seem to burst
in my head
and out my mouth
your poison
you kill life
the creativity symphony
sounds no horns
it's dull ,gray ,and old
an empty canvas
or skinless face
nothing to see
nothing to read
emptyness inside
no imagining
nothing's happening
brain Waves flattening
your a poison
that numbs everything
I can feel it numbing me