This is Peace

This is Peace

I’m falling in reverse,
I try to hold on
But i'm only meet by pure darkness
Only my shaky screams fill the gap

They all try to get hold of me
I want to yell, scream,
That I'm some ticking time bomb
And once I hit what  is at the bottom I’ll only explode

I’m calm,
I’m furious,
This is peace?
Just me and my doom awaiting at the end

Poor alice,
She nearly was diminished by pure curiosity
But she ended up just where she started
I can only hope that'll happen to me

This cannot be healthy
My thoughts devouring my brain
Hopefully, soon they'll leave me just a lifeless body
So I’ll hit rock bottom with no pain from its impact

I'm sad,
I'm hopeful,
This is peace?
Just me and a dim future at the end of this hole

Just as my fears nearly leave me a dead girl,
I can hear voices whispering at me,
A more terrifying darkness now engulfs me
And i dont have the need to question a thing

I'm done with,
I'm hopeful,
This is no longer peace
Just me and my worst fears

If I could I'd go through all this again but start at the top,
To not fall down my dark path,
So now I”m going up
The darkness lifting me

I'm optimistic,
I'm nervous
This is peace
Just me now falling in reverse, a new chance for me at the top

Don't fall back in,
Please,
Nothing at the end of my rabbit hole is to be loved,
It's only what you feared