Words We Never Say

You never told me I was beautiful
And so I rarely felt it
In your presence
You never said what made me special in your eyes
And so, I believed I wasn't
Not to you, anyway

You never tell me I'm appreciated
And so I guess I'm not
None of my efforts seem to matter
You never mention your belief in me
So I assume it doesn't exist
Urge for support must get dismissed

And so whether or not my mind deceives
I'm left with one thing to believe
You care on surface because you have to
But I'm not really valued
And I shouldn't reflect
But it's hard to neglect

Because it's the words we never say
That really get in the way

I never said how much I'd miss you
If we were to part, because I never imagined it true
And now you'll never know how much I do
I never told you how thankful I was for your love
Your encouragement and help to find the strength I'd lost
Paying in regret... pain of silence is the cost

I never said what your insight meant to me
And how it made me think differently
Because I overthought right and wrong time
I didn't reach out when I could have
Just to let you know you were thought of
And to tell you you're on my mind

And now I just wonder what your brain conjures up
If you ever bother to think about me and stuff
If I left you with hurtful inaccurate perceptions
Because of how I was interpreted despite my best intentions
And I know, I know, I shouldn't reflect
Because nobody else does, and my heart hurts when I select

But it's the things we never say
That really get in the way
Those unspoken truths
That could serve as little proofs
That someone's existence had meaning
And that the light they shine we're seeing
But when lips stay locked in tight seal
They never know how we truly feel

And so days go by and nights never end
They use broken pieces to help their hearts mend
Looking at pictures tainted with all actions tell
Memories tend to lie, but they only lie so well
Throw away remnants that cause any blur
Keep reality intact to be sure
You can't know what was if you never knew what was
Details of what is are all that you can trust
No true words spoken, finding truth in all unsaid
Fragmented reflections display confusion inside head
Searching deep for clarity in what's unheard and all that's dead
Desperate to draw conclusions that set soul free from relentless dread

Because words unsaid reveal a lot or they can lie
We create what we need to in order to get by

But what about when life turns for the worse and we see how quick it goes?
How suddenly things can change to what you thought not what you know
We beat ourselves up begging for that one little moment
To say "I love you" one last time just to make sure that they know it
Without ways to go back we just find a way to deal
Though nothing really does ever change the way we feel

So how do you ever fix a heart that has been broken
From the crushing weight of words that were never spoken?

Because words can cut deep and leave scars for life
But there's a chance to recover from the damage of a knife
They can even lift a heavy heart or brighten a dark day
They can heal and inspire with meaning they convey
There's power in strong words and strong power in silence
Both tend to torture when they leave their mark inside us

But it's easy to forget that words we never hear or say
Are sometimes the ones that truly get in the way