Stuck in the middle with you

Stuck in the middle. Whys this life such a riddle. To the one I love and my best friend. I love you more than all heaven lends. I don't know what it is. I know my soul is connected to yours. My love for you is behind closed doors. As if I could, ID travel past. My soul is acheing  and I'm sorry for that. If I could I would go back and try again. I'd be more affectionate, loving and appreciative. I'd give you massages and buy you flowers. I'd be more of a man and less of a coward. I hurt inside for not being able. I'm a failure at alot of things and not always mentally stable. I can list alot of reasons. I never meant to be misleading. I know that when you take a look back. It seems as if I probably lack. I do and I may never know why. I do love you and would give you my life. I'm sorry for not being better at the things that count. I'm sorry for being good at the things that have dead end routes. I'm sorry for calling you names. I'm sorry for the reasons you find yourself in a rage. I apologize from the bottom of my heart. For everything and every time it seemed like things were falling apart. I love you and maybe just don't know how to love. I'm greatful for knowing you and for every hug. I'm never gonna be exactly what you want me to be. I'm only who I am and it's a fucking mess to be me. Whether or not you always stay near. I will never stop loving you, the one I hold dear. May we continue to battle the struggles we fight. And may we remember that our love is worthy of heavens light. I know life is tough for I have lived to see it's true. I know life would be even tougher if I didn't have you. We're right where we are meant to be. Stuck in the middle like an island on a tree. I love you Amanda Marie Winn, more than words and more than sin. I can never explain what I want to be perfect. Words cant describe what you are to sound perfect. I can write and write and im never content. For all that you are, and what you deserve to know, be and have. Im a blessed and privileged man. Your an angel that walks with me in the sand. A beautiful soul and a priceless treasure. I'm lucky to be yours and that's a pleasure. And after this life has no more to offer. I can only hope that death will let us be together.


Dedicated to my lover, best friend and Angel from above. I love you and I can only hope I can show you one day. For all that I lack is hard for anyone to take. Thank you for being, seeing and believing. From the heart of my soul your more than anyone I know. Smoooch baby. 4-21-2016