baby girl ill be strong for you

 To say things have been easy would be a lie  
It's been months since they broke the news to me  
Not sure how to react  
 
I smiled at you although I know you can see the fear in my eyes  
 
Your little arms wrapped me in a hug  
If you ask no I'm not fine  
 
The words  
I dreaded to hear  
Dropped like a bomb in the room everything else seemed to disappear  
 
Surgery
They are due to schedule the date  
 
I rock you each night  
Sing you to sleep
 
As i lay you in bed  
Walk back to the living room
Attempt to clean  
I sit on the couch  
 
Sob and weep  
 
I dread this day  
It scares me more then you could ever know  
 
Baby girl ill be strong for you  
 
You will never know  
That behind the smile I hide these things  
I'll grip you in my arms and wont let you go  
 
The day you have surgery  
When you awake ill be there too
Waiting by your bedside still gripping your tiny hand  
 
I will smile  
 
Baby girl I will be strong for you