Missing you

i must be retared to say I miss you. Guess I am. Missing someone who turned into a ghost who haunts my dreams. Someone I still talk to in my head like a person who belongs in a insane asylum. Everyone I know tells me to get on with my life & stop being in love with someone who doesn't love me. I tried to be what others wanted me to be. I did what they say to do. You really do haunt my dreams. I always think their real but than I wake up. I don't know what to think of the thing called love. To me. It's all bullshit. Than again no. What we had was like a dream come true for me.  You were everything I wanted when I was young but now I'm just a old lady who has nothing to do with relationships because it's hard to find someone who truly understands you're soul. Gosh it's hard to be with anyone else that's why I focus what the next day bring. I rather be alone than be with someone new. Someone won't get me like you did. I miss you I miss my heart