Disturbing

why do you lie to me ?
do you want me angry ?
time is very important to me
and your wasting it
with your bullshit excuses
be honest with me
there's no reason to lie
I've lived I've died
you can't scare me
or make me judge you cruelly
I don't care
as long as it doesn't involve children
fuck everyone
go ahead kill em all
nuke em
wage war on them
I'll push the button with you to
I got no hope
for the world and its issues
I got nothing to lose
I destroyed everything
even the person inside me hides from me
my conscience is locked in a box without a key
violent tendencies
of a sociopathic me
challenged me deep in my soul internally
emergency
blood purges from me
vomiting
body trying to cleanse the evil In me
I'm a catalyst for demonic possession
the voices of demons
and their delusional grandeur
rarely but sometimes control me
giving me strength to do horrendous things
with such little memory
so it doesn't affect me
they take care of me
better than anybody
least they don't talk shit
behind my back like a coward pussy
they never leave me
So I don't care if you hate me
I hated me
in till I finally succeeded
in pure self-hatred
killing me
my heart stopped for a minute and forty-two seconds precisely
those EMT's resuscitated me
they had no choice
or they would of left me
but I was a minor of just 17
so they chose for me
cursing me
I've already seen the Otherside
without pure faith
no golden gates will open for me
self sacrifice is the only option for me
an unconditional act
then gods will take me back
the gift of visions ended suddenly
taking innocent blood
wasn't divine
In there eyes I was redefined
just a simpleton killer
blood spiller hitler whistler
with no code or moral
they were right tho
I didn't see clearly
what I was becoming so early
I should have known tho
with both my uncles in prison for life
for satanic ritual killings
my father killed to
except he was murdered
when I was just turning ten
the police never got him
but I seen
a child sees everything
and he forced me
training me he said
your an Irish - Viking
don't be a bitch they have pussy's
there weak and only meant for breeding
but
I'm still noticing the irregularities
in your story
so I tell you again
don't lie to me
it really does anger me
and uncontrolled
homicidal rage is what follows me
hurt feelings
my demons are sensitive
they wear gloves when skinning your head
I tell them to stop but they don't listen to me
push to the point of pure madman insanity