Dear mamma

This one goes out to you mom,

Before the first breath that I took you knew you didn't want me,  tried to Pawn me of to the next family in line but even they could see I was different, so there you were stuck with me,  no father insight , you never had a mother so how could I expect you to be one for me,
Hook: dear mamma I just wanted you to hold me to remind me that everything would be alright but you only ever gave me was the cold shoulder so I cried every night

You left me with the one person who gave me everything, so don't come back demanding I owe you respect not after everything you put me through, cuz I rember the nights when you would scream at me because my brother was crying you see he was still just an infant wanting your love, the same love you left me starving for,

Hook: dear mamma I just wanted you to hold me to remind me that everything would be alright but you only ever gave me was the cold shoulder so I cried every night

You contently abuse me not physically anymore but mentally each word you spew straight venom from your core, did you ever stop to wonder what that's doing to my health , fucking with my psyche then wondering why my wrist were scared playing the role as the parent who cared till it wasn't convenient any more,
You left my feeling abandoned and broken not just once but over and over now get mad when I refuse to notice your presence , because there is nothing that can ever change the pain you left in my heart

Hook: dear mamma I just wanted you to hold me to remind me that everything would be alright but you only ever gave me was the cold shoulder so I cried every night

As much as I want to hate you so desperately need to, I can't I will always want to protect you and I can't help but love you, just know I'm done with you I can love from a distance but you'll never know the person I've become you'll never get to see the daughter you didn't help create because you deserve nothing in return for what I've got, youre just lucky I don't got the heart to do to you what you've done to me, I went for years believe it was my fault that you didn't care but I understand now it was the drugs that left you so impared, there is so much left to say but I don't have the words to describe it anyway..

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Haha fuck You