1000 days

1000 days from the shadows ill wait

with no control or say over my fate

in the never void ill become forgotten again

as now my subconscious torches my heart

the flames in my regrets cast no light

and my dreams will be left in the past

my tears remain unnoticed

trying to regain some sort of focus

ill wight and prey for a honorable exit

intentions of kindness mistrusted inhibitions

there are more motives hidden behind morals and ethics

things i would never say if the question was presented

theirs more then one reason one might wish

to tie up loose ends with profound emotional contempt

i am on a jearney but its not to contentment

im discussed with this world and my life i want to...

its a mistake to let you know all the reasons why

but the truth is you are the only reason im alive

1000 days then you wont have a say

its my expectation that you wont say anything anyway

my apologizes grow meaningless the same way

i don't mind this abnormal amount of pain

its nice to feel something real again

evan if it is just more amounting shame

just know that im not playing games

i say what i mean i mean what i say

i know im never going to see you again

i know im completely insane

i know i have nothing to be proud of

im sorry in the wrong guilty and ashamed

i know it wont change for the next 997 days

i know i was never in control of anything to do with us

i know you never wanted it that way
 
still without hope, i wight

from the depths of the dark to complete decay

with out a voice or a say

hopelessly purposeless and no reasons at all

i wake work cry wight sleep and wake in emptiness

painfully aware of the pointlessness in my efforts

i promise to die for a reason

i leave no justifiable course for you to wish

to break through these walls of thought

by you ive only ever done wrong

my biggest regrets are about the beat in your chest

and your mind i cherish its strength

i turn to you when i cant cope with myself

i cant cope alone i hate my home

that's why i work it gets me out of my head

but you deserve more ill never be any good

ive always understood your life is beta without me

1000 days i owe to your memorie

that's the last though ill take with me

ill die fighting to live for you...

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