Hollow tears

chances are you don't love me
the way I love you now
there's always that one
that cares more
loves
and gives more of them selfs each time
I seemed to be that one this time
which kinda sucks
I was hoping to finally sit back and relax
and be loved
and not have to chase it
ask or beg for it
but that's how life fucks me
always chosen last
not respected enough
but always the best pick
the one you wished you would have picked in the end
when your left alone and frozen
cold and hopeless
then you want me there to repair
your fucked life
which it wouldn't have been
if you chose me first
I'm a lot more intelligent than you think
I can feel people's emotions better than you can read
I feel the pain in my feet
from walking theses lonely streets for far too long
I've walked all these miles and where have I gone
still
I sing the same song
a sad song
a song I only know
one I wrote for my lonely heart on the road
I hum it to myself daily
subconsciously protecting myself from the poison from entering me
the depression the misery that lives in me
I can't let it control me or it will eat me
pushing the ones I love away from me
I don't know tho maybe it's best for me
I'm a hopeless romantic in a world with none
maybe it's my fate to die un-loved
cold and dead my hand grips a photo
of you
my love
and ex-lover
one I held on to for so many years
so many tears have fallen and you don't even know
not that you care if you did you would be there
my hand grips a photo
the last look
I took of you before death takes me
cold alone and shivering I fade into nothing
hoping the wind takes and accends me
to somewhere
where I'm the bee knees to somebody
the days
are so lonely
and nobody can save me