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bella haven
what if I said that I was lonely
and you are the one that makes life lovely
would you be there for me?
if I had you
I would hold you
so close
that I could hear your breath by my ear
I miss at night when you would hold me
and stop the dreams from turning into screams
you would get close as you could and wrap your legs around me
whisper in my ear that you loved me
stopping all the demons from feasting in me
I wish you were with me and in my arms
using your fingers to trace all my scars
when you had bad dreams
I would wipe your tears away when you would sleep
you would nuzzle and scooch closer to me
unknowingly
that I was awake holding and protecting you from your evil dreams which were really memories
you would cry out in the middle of each night
screaming and hurting
and each night I would hold you and cry
feeling all the pain from your life
I held you each night until one night there were no more cries
you just snuggled me quietly all night
I felt I succeeded somehow
when you would wake
you would rise with a beautiful smile
that inside made me feel like a child
I loved waking up every day next to you
I would reach my arm out each night just to feel you
feeling so good that you were still there with me
ending the pain I felt every day with such misery
you took all the pain from me
with you I felt I was finally free
and free to be happy
but that's just an illusion in life now I see
then one day
you just disappeared
and I was left here
alone
and with no one
I sat on the edge of the bed
and it all came rushing in
this is it
I will never love again
I sat there for days
just staring at the wall
just wishing to see you
or at least hear your voice in a call
but again
I was left with nothing
not even a note
just a facebook message
saying
" im done playing "
what kind of heartless bitch does that
i was your fiance you dont do that
and you wonder now why I wanna fillet you
you broke the nicest man
who was ever in your life
remember how you would hold me and cry
saying you never had this love
this kinda of life
you said you've never been loved so intensely in your life
it blew your mind
but something in you was never just right
you had to run from this beautiful life
you took my heart with you because that day I died
never again will I love women like you in my life
you showed me that I was ok
alright
I wasn't a monster at least in your eyes
I love you for what you had given me
true love at least that was my feeling
but I hate you for what you took from me
my hope of ever loving again
I really don't care if you love me or not
I just want you back
I know it's sad as fuck
but I cant stop my heart from loving you
just like my soul from missing you
i know were thru
so
idk
fuck you i guess lol
and you are the one that makes life lovely
would you be there for me?
if I had you
I would hold you
so close
that I could hear your breath by my ear
I miss at night when you would hold me
and stop the dreams from turning into screams
you would get close as you could and wrap your legs around me
whisper in my ear that you loved me
stopping all the demons from feasting in me
I wish you were with me and in my arms
using your fingers to trace all my scars
when you had bad dreams
I would wipe your tears away when you would sleep
you would nuzzle and scooch closer to me
unknowingly
that I was awake holding and protecting you from your evil dreams which were really memories
you would cry out in the middle of each night
screaming and hurting
and each night I would hold you and cry
feeling all the pain from your life
I held you each night until one night there were no more cries
you just snuggled me quietly all night
I felt I succeeded somehow
when you would wake
you would rise with a beautiful smile
that inside made me feel like a child
I loved waking up every day next to you
I would reach my arm out each night just to feel you
feeling so good that you were still there with me
ending the pain I felt every day with such misery
you took all the pain from me
with you I felt I was finally free
and free to be happy
but that's just an illusion in life now I see
then one day
you just disappeared
and I was left here
alone
and with no one
I sat on the edge of the bed
and it all came rushing in
this is it
I will never love again
I sat there for days
just staring at the wall
just wishing to see you
or at least hear your voice in a call
but again
I was left with nothing
not even a note
just a facebook message
saying
" im done playing "
what kind of heartless bitch does that
i was your fiance you dont do that
and you wonder now why I wanna fillet you
you broke the nicest man
who was ever in your life
remember how you would hold me and cry
saying you never had this love
this kinda of life
you said you've never been loved so intensely in your life
it blew your mind
but something in you was never just right
you had to run from this beautiful life
you took my heart with you because that day I died
never again will I love women like you in my life
you showed me that I was ok
alright
I wasn't a monster at least in your eyes
I love you for what you had given me
true love at least that was my feeling
but I hate you for what you took from me
my hope of ever loving again
I really don't care if you love me or not
I just want you back
I know it's sad as fuck
but I cant stop my heart from loving you
just like my soul from missing you
i know were thru
so
idk
fuck you i guess lol
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