Dizzy

I don't claim to have a lot of wisdom
I don't check the water depth before I dive in
I just hit my head on a bunch of rocks
swim back to the beach and try again
 
I don't know the point people are looking for
or why I don't feel like I can call you anymore
so I get drunk, buy things online to make me smile
but I don't smile, I haven't smiled in awhile
 
I've got mixed feelings about everything
I can't seem to let you let go of me
am I the only one here who feels dizzy?
what happened to loving the lack of control?
I can't seem to let you let go
 
I've got more going for me than I realize
if I listen to anything anyone has said
but I get so caught up inside of this mind
I don't think I'll listen until I'm dead
 
I've got mixed feelings about everything
I can't seem to let you let go of me
am I the only one here who feels dizzy?
what happened to loving the lack of control?
I can't seem to let you let go
 
I have this distinct picture in my mind
on your couch watching the Wonder Years
drinking red wine that I didn't even like
to calm my nerves, you made me so fucking nervous
 
if I'd known then what I know now
I wouldn't have told myself not to be so nervous
 
I've got mixed feelings about everything
I can't seem to let you let go of me
am I the only one here who feels dizzy?
what happened to loving the lack of control?
I can't seem to let you let go