war inside

every day i face him
this anger inside
i want to keep peace
but all he wants is war
i see through my eyes
as well as his eyes
mine show the good
and his reveal the evil
his voice repeats all day
almost like glass in my ears
he always hits where it hurts
my family, friends
even someone i love
he fights for control
every chance he gets
he made me lose everyone
he made me hurt all my friends
he made me leave my family
but what hurts the most
he made me kill…
… someone i loved
and all i could do is watch
watch him put the blade in her
watch it come out with her blood
and watch her cry as she faded away
he's taken everything from me
turned everyone against me
i don't blame others for hating me
i blame myself, i let it happen...