TRIALS OF LOVE

I wish you know how I feel
About how me, you, us
Existing in a world created
By us, you, me but not them;
Not living, because I can’t feel life
In, in this thing defined by, by
A four-letter word, yet ruling
Not just me, you, us but also them.

I wish you know how I feel;
How much I want this to be real.
But you won’t, will you?
Your mind is clearly drifted
Away from the horizons of my
My love, yet I live in a hope,
In a belief strong with a will
That our hearts will cross again.

But what if they never meet
At the cross-roads where, where
Our destinies are meant to intersect
And decide where to go
From this place we stand in absentia
Yet so vivid the reality in my revelry?
Maybe I fantasized too much
And my hope is bleak as such.

Like a phoenix, will this love rise
From the ashes of my cremated heart?
Broken, yet to be at peace with
With the emotions that so much want
A want my mind shields my flesh
From expressing though it burns within
Creating chars through its decomposition
To soot awaiting a spark to ignite the flame.

So here I am, here I stand
Reminiscing on the past
Hoping to get lost in the maze
Of revelries of past memories;
But if you could bring me out
And show forth more than I,
I can express then I will be
Here with you, lost in this feeling.