Faith

Crying to god over stupid shit no one wants to here or care for
Fear that he may destroy me for the person I have become
Beliefs conflicting with what the Bible says
Why can't being christian have more simplicity?
Feeling as if this person I am might as well be wrong
God did you make a mistake while shaping me?
Feeling pretty lost in it all
Having many family members and friends,
yet none know the peculiar that reeks inside me
I do not know who god is any more
I want love and not scrutiny
Still trusting in a higher being,
but I can not belive in judgmental authority
Not sure where in the categories of life I'm suppose to be
I do know a light is leading me
That's enough happiness I need
The rest of the propaganda can get out of here so I can be free