hidden pain

i used to feel joy
back when i wasn't alone
when i wasn't lost in the dark
but all of that has changed
i keep a fake smile on
because i never stop hurting
my pain isn't from abuse
but from being forgotten
all i can do is disappear
people talk to me
they get to know me
they enjoy the moment
then forget about me
act as if i was never there
i see people who feel love
get accepted like others
and it hurts me
more than any blade...
i keep my pain to myself
how can anyone accept me
how can anyone love me
they look at my face
and only see a monster
i keep this smile so i can hide
i don't want other to know my pain
i only wanted to be loved as a person
not forgotten and cast aside...