trenstendentle iggistance

 the ends in the middle
now tie them together
progresion to massica
die with honouh and pride
in shangraligh i stand a worrior

in the pressons of my musical congrencey
i stand tryal for my peers to juge me
evaliwation of insainity lifes enteral
exacpe stragity cry like a man
the virtic is guilty
last words before your final jerny
time will stop befor i stop
maintaining my musical congruencey

focus on the exit
the last words i say
will be the ones i hold
alone in my grave

not happy with my life
not happy with my pride
not happy with my ties
to the reality and
everthing outside
the musical paradime
fighting in the name
of its congruency
this situation scears me to death
and i dont flee or freeze
i fight when im sceard
fighting thoughts i couldent
gather together
so far between
the deep sudden breaths
a ageny from within to confide
inverted love to fear obiting
a geometric patten though out in through
every sharka every thought
next level aproces
from the depths in the dark of the wight
the maddness it creates
and the impending psycotic display
to the scales of eqwel waight
through consenet analisis all day
dad said if youve got something to say
then fucking say it why are you afraid

if what i say hurts you ive disonerd my heart
and my heart and my honour requires
blades by my own hands blood vomit will cleance my sole
yet my intention is to dissipear a final harra
suidide has never been a hobby of mine
all i can say is what you want to hear
if the world dont fall apart if you let me near
the morol landscape to reside dossnt cater for cying alone
what do i do when they ask whats wrong
whats right are you sure you dont know

that landscape became blurred
and a dark shadow was cast around my preiviles
i could feel myself as the struthers
that hold my iggistance in place
meterilised into patterns of emptiness
my priour preperations and aploigeies
were now iralivent in my incognitiveness
all i could work out is im never
going to see you again all i wanted to say was
before you go interpretmy words as you see fit
a exterstential statement if you will
buy theres nothing in this world I valued more
then your iggistance in mine i feel the need to apoligise
for every time contact between us was made
i was always inadiqwet to shear your space
im going to die a cowerd becuase i never said it to your face
im not about to abanden this vessel but im commited to die alone
i will never be with someone i dont love again
the blackest voids of my mind scape light up with memories
ill qwietly take to my grave if i never again see your face
i will never regard it as a waisted waight
befoe i go i wanted to let you know i was never the piture
i was painted to be please accept a pile of rocks
wrapt in ceap deomestic cloth as a token of my kind intention
without honour and bearly any pride i looked into your eyes
for the final time and left the room a cowerd

emraceing a singerlarity
a sinle point in time
were two combined
thoughts were impossible to read
what i right
has to be left out of sight
i cant say it without dieing inside
emtpy space embrace
set course
the thought
had set its course
past perivials of man kind
a strand of truth harminised
with a hire frecwency
i dont iggist at all
when you dont see me
you iggist almost intirely in my head
if it wasent for the fingerprint of matter
that came together with divine insperation
forth brought buy a carival of sorts
the only song i ever play
the one thing i didnt want to say
and its all i said
hello, goodbye, its all in my head
empty space embrace
i need to pull my fucking head in
i've never done myself any favours
i've never answered any qwestions
i'm useless unusually twisted
my thoughts defi my own iggistance
my heart only has displacement in it
i live more in the words on my wall
then i do with you all
negitivity surrounds my sole
still i own it run with it
like a hachet when i throw it
i retrive it or catch it in the flow of
my motions pay attention
see my sole has a temper patten
now i know all the reasons for the
distance we placed between us the
result of impations
now ive been so patient soon ill be
a mental patient
i watched paint dry crack and flake
now theres only the reminisce of decay
when you ask me why there to mutch to say
no way to say it in a way that dossen't
sound insane
i'm prepeared to spend the rest of my days
alone out of your harms way
i just dont cear what anyone has to say
if you really want a conversation
you will see me in may
i need you to tell me that
there will nevere be a
vacancey in your life for me
i need to know you are no
more happyer with or without me
i need to fall into this tragity
and face the truth of my insanity
becuase its had a hold on me
i never broke free
and thats why i'm sorry.