Gasoline

did it matter
did it ever have substance
the words left your lips so easily
like silk
your lies were always so beautiful
you almost made me believe in them
your tales of dedication and heroism
I always saw right thru
pathological lying was your skill
remember what I said that night
I laughed at your alligator tears
I laughed at you
and said babe
god damn your the best I've seen
sobbing stops whats that supposed to mean
exactly baby you just proved it to me
I'm not a con artist you scream
I never said you were hun
just said your the best I've seen
and you are
and still are
if I ever needed a spy
I would use you
you even confused me
and had me almost buying
a product a dream
that I would never need
the funny thing
is thru it all
and with all your trying
bitch you still left with nothing
well another felony dummy
ya your work called and was looking for the missing money
I told um I wouldn't doubt it,
you did her background check what did it say buddy
check fraud assaults and drug felony I saw
well why the fuck you calling me
use your brain or call the police
but stay the fuck away from me
because I kicked that bitch to the curb
two nights ago at 1:30 in the morning
raining and pouring
I sat inside and laughed with my buddy to
at how cold wet and stupid,
she must be feeling
sitting out in front of my house fucking begging
for me to show some compassion and empathy
bitch did you show me any?
fuck no honey
so take that sad face
hit the fuckin track
and dont come back unless you got my money
do you fuckin understand me
because it's taking every fuckin thing in me
to stop my hands from stopping your breathing
don't fuck with me
unless your fucking me
sensually
because hurting my last feeling
tends to end badly
loudly
then everything gets quiet
silently I finish up
bleaching everything
I'm just a germaphobe
that's why I had the bleach
the teeth
well I don't know about those
i kinda was keepin them as trophies
I mean its rare to find a whole set of teeth
crushed and broken finely
like sand it seems
passing thru my finger tips
I watch you blow away into nowhere
funny
that's the same place I found you
no where
doing nothing
but being the perfect dope sick junkie
remember babe
you were sitting in the dirt when I saved you
with the clothes on your back
and not even enough change to get a coffee
I brought you in
clothed you
shit got a whole new wardrobe for you
you had your own sink
your own things again
so why the fuck did you bite the hand
that kept you warm clothed and fed
and with no rules to speak of
except when your with me
its just me
I guess it wasn't enough
you love to self-destruct
all in the hopes you might get a bigger check
and maybe a little better drugs
was it worth it all babe?
now you hide
not just from me but my people
the problem is there everywhere
yes sunshine I know where you are
I've been knowing honey
the thing is
your sad and pathetic to me
all I feel is pity
and I think your just where you need to be
far far away from me