He Scares Me

 Something in him has shifted
I’m not sure what’s the source.
Or am I? As in me? The cause.
Once upon a fairy tale we were almost inseparable
Connected at the chest like a pair of conjoined twins
In sync with my emotions
Easily I could feel him a million miles across this widespread land
But that energy it just isn’t the same
In fact when I’m in the presence of it I feel almost suffocated
It’s pulling at times and draining to say the least
I often run to busy myself with other things, anything to get away
Desperate that the ounce of positivity I have left in me may succumb to his mysterious whirlpool
Nothing returns from there and I don’t want to be dissolved into the unknown
I love him so much it hurts me to literally think of existing without him here
But I’m so lost now I often don’t know where here even is
Could it be that I have hindered him so much to the point of the removal of my life from his could mean the removal of his life in entirety?
Can love be that dangerously deadly?
He scares me and not like the warm and comforting way he used to when it came to losing him
He scares me now differently
His eyes still sparkle with a light indeed but they are much dimmer than before
Haunting to peer into even on the sunniest days
I never thought this type of fear could be reached between us
In order to live I know one of us must let go….but how do you release the part of you that never dies?
How do recover your soul?