Why?

I never turn off my phone
Never
You know this.
I am always reachable
Any time,  any day
I have helped you before...
Even at work, you come first.
Whatever you were going through,
You knew I would never judge you
I wish you would have called me
I would have tried to talk you out of it
I will miss you
I love you
Im sorry I didnt see the signs
May God have mercy on you
It was the drugs, maybe
They got a hold of your heart and your soul
They made you stupid, but I understand
And I loved you anyways
Because you loved me
I can only pray that you no longer have to suffer
and that you are free....
I feel anger, fear, sorrow, sadness...
Ill never know the answers
All I can do now is have a shot in your name
I wish you would have called....