Can't find the right words

Oh how many words I have written
Only to be thrown away
Hoping some to have a meaning
Most come from my heart
Some from the darkest part of me
But some how I still can't put into words how I feel about you
I've tried so hard to explain it
But sometimes you can't write something if you don't quite understand the force yourself
Have you put me under a spell
Is it love or fantasy I just can't tell