Suicide monster

I hug myself and hold my own fingers.
See through my darkness with the light of my heart.
All the terror i have put myself through is pushing out.
and i cannot pray for the world.
For i am it's greatest nightmare
i am it's only savior.
They are my greatest goals.

And my flesh tears
it breaks.
Flakes of me hit the ground and disappear.
Forgotten memories, become archived.
But i'll see them when i close my eyes.

Once again blood is own my hands.
This fire burns so intensely
that i just find myself
lashing out, and out
Until i break down with tears in my eyes.
looking at the sky
wonder why and why and how

And my flesh tears
it breaks.
Flakes of me hit the ground and disappear.
Forgotten memories, become archived.
But i'll see them when i close my eyes.

All of the pain it rips me to pieces.
Of the monster i am becoming.
Holes form, and i see myself, seeing myself
look at me through the mirror.
gripping the ashes and flakes in childish fascination..

And my flesh tears
it breaks.
Flakes of me hit the ground and disappear.
Forgotten memories, become archived.
But i'll see them when i close my eyes.

Pulling andpicking at these wounds.
Watching them drip and ooze.
Spreading myself thin across the world to smother it.
Spreading myself thick across to hold it one last time.
These are my greatest goal.
As i fall to pieces, my flesh tears.
it breaks leaving a piece of me with each and every act of madness.
The chaos settles and is built over,
Like they never happened, i loop around once more, reminding them.
The screams and explosions, gun fire will loll me to sleep tonight.

As my flesh tears
it breaks so i can see.
Flakes of me hit the ground and disappear, leaving me soft ground to walk on.
Forgotten memories, become archived, so i may read my travels as i fall to sleep.
 and see them when i close my eyes.