I'm that man

 I'm one of those people,labeled an addict. I'm judged, I'm doubted, yeah I don't doubt it. I'm the man you fear, I'm the man you want near. I'm loyal and faithfully true. But nobody can handle what it is I do.  I'm the one you call a friend. But when I'm not around you can't help but pretend. I must remind you of who I am. I'm that addict inside this man. I'm the one you say you can't trust. Yet I'm the one that's first to bust. You say I'm angry but its passion that speaks.fuck keeping calm when I'm the feast. Violence isn't the answer but neither is peace. Addicted to a life that's not so bad. Only because its all I've had. Addicted to the times that have not changed. Not so much a lifestyle as its the living that's rearranged. From the streets to a cage. From the cage to the streets. It's the grind that allows me to be free. Watching out for you and me. Yet I'm the only one with cuffs on my hands. Because your my people and I protect my brand. Call me crazy, call me careless. But remember who I am, I'm the one that carry's your stress. I'm the one that keeps shit real. I'm the one that would give you my life and wheels. I trust nobody because I refuse to be fooled again. Don't blame me, blame those motherfucking sins. I believe in things that you can't give. I hate all that are the reasons you live. I'm that addict in case you forgot. Nothing more than a lost soul. Just spinning my wheels digging a hole. Can't find a reason so I cycle like the seasons. Can't find a cure so I'm forced to endure. Day in day out. Caught between the floods and droughts. Never the less, I'm a fucking mess. But not as you are, for your the one that's scarred. Hiding is not the same as avoiding. Acknowledging is not the same as exploiting. Judge me, but not before you judge yourself. Fear me but not for what you know. We all can't believe, when we all fight to retrieve, what it is that makes us bleed. The difference is only a matter of beliefs. The reality is that what we don't know is truly our grief. I'm addicted to life, and living right. I'm too quick to test, my standards aren't realistically best. Kinda like you and how you doubt who I am. We are two of the same, we are only trying to understand. Don't try to understand, and I will do the same. I'm an addict remember, at least I own what I try to tame. Addiction chose me and I don't choose to abuse. I am powerless, I can't win when I was born to lose. But my message is real and although I choose to conceal how I sometimes feel. It's only because you choose to undermine me and my ability to heal. Ignorance and stupidity are not reasons to judge. And your unable to change for your holding a grudge. Pain is my life. Love is my light. Living to fight. For the fight is my right.

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