My very best friend

You were my first, my very best friend.
[Fuck if i wasn't so in love with you]
and it worked cuz your best friend dated my best friend
the four us were inseparable, no one entered our circle
every weekend we drank liquor and smoked purple
I kept waiting though, for you to make shit official
but I guess your feelings for me were only superficial
but you were my very best friend... I couldn't leave you alone
for hours I would cry to you on the phone
You didn't have much to say, you were just as confused
how could I feel so special and yet feel so used
I remember when you got your girlfriend, "sunshine"
I hated that bitch cuz she had what I felt was rightfully mine
I loved you first.. even before you dated my other friend
Yeah I went along with it all I got good at playing pretend
[Because you were my very best friend]
Eventually I blossomed into a butterfly
I was someone you couldn't deny
I started to test the waters, yeah I was talking to other guys
I shed the old me and I started to rise
My torch I held for you starting going out
I secretly hoped you'd see this, Maybe you'd doubt
[but we remained very best friends]
I was still yours to fuck and screw
despise it all, You were still my favorite dude
I ended up moving out of town and met someone new
it was then I finally stopped talking to you
Few years go by and I see you again
[It was good to see you old friend]
I was going through my own problems with my man
Feeling like I got delt a shitty fucking hand
living with a stranger I couldn't stand
I knew I was playing with fire being back in your orbit
But apart of me was ready to forfeit
I was sure feelings for you would resurface
Ill admit I was a little nervous
but I had changed a lot, I wasn't the shy girl you used to know
I was confident, I had a natural glow
You must of noticed this, because it was then you wanted more
If only you wanted me before
Before I got locked into this toxic relationship
Before he had me under his grip
It was just a little, [years] too fucking late
Did you really think I would wait?
But now you want to make amends
but all we can be is just very best friends
and this time you left with a broken heart
You should rocked with me from the start

I may not have been the baddest bitch in school
I was definitely more geeky than cool
but I was and still am a solid chick
Skinny string bean thang turned thick
Yes you see you planted the seed..
but you were impatient with need
so you left before you could see me grow
into a flower with a golden glow
Tables are turned, now look at whose chasing who?
I guess you should of thought that through