poisoned

 poisoning me with your lies and your dreams  
you torment me with hopes and sweet things  
all were planned from deep within  
and with no care was truly given  
its always been a sick game to you
people are nothing to you just tools
stealing there hopes dreams and happiness  
because your miserable and blue and seek vengeance  
you build them up growing your soul to perfection
when its nice and perfectly happy you take it  
you consume there soul delivering evil to them
feeding yourself then to say you didn't eat or drink  
and your hungry  starving and  dying  
someone else ate it you say lying  
 I gave change to the  homeless  
its not me im perfectly perfect
the fuckery that's going on is sick and twisted  
that's what it was
  that's what it is to you
spoken and warned from within the souls  
it crept thru warning that the fuckery was aiming for you
 I'm  stupid and blind and stupid blind and weak
should have trusted my gut when It said shes perfect
i always love the darkest of the women race  
pushing aside the sweet kind and helpful
only to fuck over and destroy my self  
well its over  
not anymore more  
I'm hoping my love love
the one I told was the opposite of me
was perfect for me balancing me like
the universe vast and deep her atmosphere
stabilizing and giving life and oxygen to me
that's what I need  
someone who knows what love is  
cuz obviously I'm a dumb fuck  
that wished and dreamed  
fuck wishes fuck dreams  
and fuck you too  
lay in the bed you made  
from illusions and lies you grew