Just sometimes

I hate the way I look,
I hate the way I am,
It's not just one thing,
It's not even the two,
It's everything.

I can't cope with the feeling that I am nothing,
I can't cope with the fight that I have with myself,
I don't know what is wrong with me,
I can't begin to understand,

I know what I see,
I know what I am not,
This is much bigger,
Much deeper than me,

What can I do,
But just take it,
These things are just temporary,
They do just disappear,
Gone as fast as it appeared,

But yet where does it come from?
How does it get here?
For it does not deserve to make me feel like this,
I don't even know what it is....

Rare but so powerful!