ME ?

I stand in my world and i know this is not where i need to be
Everyday spent in this hell and misery
Watching again and again as happiness passes me by
It seems i never win sometimes i just want to die

My eyes have seen things i can never share with anyone
Sometimes i just want to turn and run
As far away as i can possibly go
To the end of the world you know

The nightmares come them i cannot stop
Like the smell of societies rot
I wake in the night to my own silent screams
Tell me please how can i escape my own dreams

I hear laughter and my face starts to burn
The touch of loving hand i so yearn
Alone i walk through my ups and downs
In my own self pity i slowly drown

I feel so alone and im a self made outcast
Be cause i just cant forget my tattered past
So slowly i retract into my hardened shell
Hating my life and my own living hell