Why Can't You Be Normal

Here I am again
If thinking of you is a sin

Then I'm already in hell
From the moment I fell

There is no escape for me
Everyday is fringed in misery

Every night I cry myself to sleep
My pillows soaking from the tears I weep

I'm no body just a homeless freak
I can't curve this fucking streak

I wish I was normal... I wish I could fit in
I wish I wasn't thinking of you again

Because you were my home
And now you're gone again and I'm alone

Everything hurts... I can't even eat
My depression isn't something anyone can defeat

Nothing can make me feel better
My cheeks are only getting wetter

There is no you and the hole in my heart
Is always ripping me in more ways then apart

You were my home and now I can't be me
Everyone wants me to be normal... no one can see

That this is me... tear soaked pillows
Hair falling like the weeping willows

I cry in the bathroom, stranger in my bed
Silent screams red hot in my head

Someone end this misery....
I'm downing in a tear filled sea

Please... someone just hold me as I cry
Someone please just tell me... why?