Die or Fly

Some people were born into an easy life,
destined for greatness due to their stability with emotions.
Some people were born into a life of crime
and bad choices.
Some people have it that every decision they make
is right, correct, perfect;
and some people suffer no matter how hard they try.
They try to be good.
They try to do things right.
They try to measure up to the standards
of everyone they see around them
because those people seem to know how to handle life!
It's hard to be that one person
struggling to be responsible,
to be reliable,
to be dependable.
It's hard to be the one person who only sees in
black and white.
Black being evil and white being pure light.
I love you, you're my best friend.
I hate you, how could you hurt me?
It's hard to want more out of life
and what to do great things,
to change the world-
but when
emotion regulation
is rocket science for your brain
you have that time in life when you need to accept
that you're not the same as everyone else who made it to college,
who made it through school,
who has relationships,
dreams,
lives,
faith,
hope.
It's terribly hard to be that person
because everyone else doesn't seem to understand
that when they
sink or swim
there are those of us who
die or fly.