stand tall

i wish I could stand strong and be able to walk on my own.
I wish I could count my steps back and reverse to the time I decided to say hi and become a part of your life.
I wanna know how you took my life with just one simple line.
I wanna be done with the life me and you live.
I wish I had never opened up and shared my struggles and the pain that I felt, I regret every word I ever said.
cause now I know how you can make me feel and how quick it takes for you to control my every move.
you made my days filled with pain and fear quickly disappear with no effort at all, you were a superhero in disguise. you were my superhero,
you were my everything that ended up destroying my life.
you soon became everything I ever needed and everything a hated and despised.
you were the only thing I ever wanted in life and too soon you became the only  I needed  to survive through my painful life that I lived.
I wanna walk away and leave your side, never look back and live my own life.
iv tried to do this so many times but it seems like I always coming running back to your side.
you made me feel as if nothing was wrong and that my life was complete with you around.
you successfully gained full control of the person iv become.
Fuck, why cant I just wake up from this nightmare I call my life and realize your just a lie that's ruining my life and that I no longer want you by my side.
I just wanna be the person before I met you and not the person created from all the lies inside that little spoon of mine.