The Apple Falls Far From The Tree

Why should there be a day dedicated to you
When you didn't dedicate one to me
When I was younger and cried, you would just laugh at me
Then you took off
For a new family
And I was too fucking scared to go back to my mother
because I left her, with you thinking I was smart
Thought I made the right choice
But you're shit
Do you know what it's like growing up in your teen years?
Living with your grandmother and no parental guidance?
I had no one for advice
No one to show me how to play nice
Instead I had kids picking on me
Telling me my dad bailed on me and my mom didn't want me
I shouldn't wake up crying because I had a dream with you in it
I shouldn't have people ask me why I don't know how to do things
I taught myself mostly everything
I want to talk to you..but I'm afraid how
Do you know how fucking horrible it feels
To be your only son that you got rid of for a new family
A new family that's messed up and you're clearly unhappy now
I don't even remember when I last seen you or spoke to you
I don't know where you live....
I don't care, but I do...
I love you, but I hate you
Happy Fathers day dad
I figure someone told you that, not me
I'm done with you, nothing is more true
Yet my heart and mind ache and say
"I just want my dad..."