THE PROMISE

I WANT TO BE WITH
THE ONE THAT IS PART OF ME
ONE THAT HASN'T MADE
THE MISTAKES I HAVE
TO BE THERE TO MAKE SURE
HE DOESN'T MAKE THOSE SAME WRONG CHOICES
DENIED MY PRESENCE AND LOVE
TAUGHT TO LIVE WITHOUT ME THERE
SAYING "I LOVE YOU DAD"
WITHOUT REALLY TRULY LOVING ME
ME FEELING LOST AND CONFUSED
NOT KNOWING WHAT IS BEST
TO BE CLOSE
BUT NOT BEING ABLE
TO BE APART OF HIS LIFE
WANTING TO BE RECOGNIZED
TO ALL AS HIS FATHER
BUT HELL !! I CAN'T EVEN
PICK HIM UP FROM SCHOOL
WHAT DID I DO IN THE PAST
THAT WAS SO BAD
THAT I DESERVE THIS HORRID FATE
I KNOW BETTERING MYSELF
I BETTER ALL
BUT I'M HAVING TROUBLE SEEING IT IN ME
WITHOUT YOU
I'M WANTING TO WALK
WHILE STEPPING ON MY OWN FEET
I KNOW IT'S NOBODIES FAULT BUT MY OWN
THERE'S NO ONE TO BLAME OR STAND IN THE WAY
I'M JUST SCARED TO LEARN
TO WALK BY MYSELF AGAIN
A FEAR THAT MUST GO
IF YOU AND I ARE TO GROW
GROW TOGETHER AS FATHER AND SON
I'VE BEEN PROMISING YOU FOR TO LONG
IT'S ABOUT TIME I CAME THROUGH
NOT ONLY FOR ME
BUT BECAUSE I MADE A PROMISE TO YOU !!
SO IN A FEW YEARS
YOU DON'T LOOK BACK
AND BELIEVE I HAD FORSAKEN YOU
NICK PLEASE DON'T STOP BELIEVING
I LOVE YOU MORE
THAN ANYTHING !!