he loved to play with electicty

I will die with the truth

You gotta earn your why in life
it's the way it has to be.
sure you can
lie, manipulate, sneak, and perpetrate,
but now your back at zero.
canceled out,
hitting the floor begging for more
the vanity that i see
disgusts me internally
nothing in life is for free.
trust me,

I've been rich
spending 3000 a week
and been poor
where
I couldn't afford
even something un seen like emotional support.

so fuckin hungry i attack without reason
starring at people like its fucking hunting season
chopped up,skrewd up, my doc says my minds fucked up

even my own mother is afraid of me
she watches her mouth when she talks to me.
the only one shes does it with I've truly seen,

but if you knew me you would see
why im the way i am.

most people grab their face in shock
then try and hold my hands and talk
apologizing and crying like there ones.
who took my soul when I was young.

violently damaging,
abusing and torturing me!
i fucking! hate ! electricity!!

STAY THE FUCK AWAY FROM ME!!

i screamed and begged
but NO one ever listens to kids
just follow what your parents rules

so i did,
and
i acceppted my fate ..

i was no older than 7
when i lost sight of heaven

and by the time i was 8
i had seen women raped

and by the end of that year
and without feeling fear
i could grab that fucking electric fence
and not even one tear.

would fall from my face.

my pops was killer ,
a true gangster for real.

not that street gang
gangbangin flag wearin
pussy ass shit

but a real organized crime syndicate

if you've ever watched gangland on the history channel
and you dig that type of shit .
you probably seen my house raided by the feds
and the crew he fucked with

now you know
bits and picecs of
only two years of my life .

i'am now 25
i've seen way to much to quick

but maybe you will understand
why i am so cold
and make people earn their own shit,