Midnight Rides

Clawing myself out of the incredible whirlwind that has become the downward spiral of my life
Bad decisions and mistakes
This bitch ain't got no breaks
It's gotten so wreckless
Madness and mayhem
And not the kind that insurance will cover
I need an escape, to feel numb
But liquor and my wages make a miserable pair
I can't ever wash the weed smell out of my hair
I've lost control
I need power taken over me
Left to my own devices, the destruction I could create seems limitless
In my car in sanctuary
Or solitary confinement
I'm still not sure which
Open the gate, turn the switch
Retreat imminent
And I boot the pedal to the floor
I never thought I was the kind to run away from home but damn
One can only take so much
Back pinned to the seat
Friction and rubber creating heat
Turn up the radio and feel it
Bass
Regulating my heartbeat to the sound of the drums
Invading my mind
Forcing out my internal screams
Vibrating between my legs
Trembling transferred from my hands to my thighs
Slow it down and then the calm
Feeling returning to my arms
Deep breaths and I think I'm back
Until I feel fast and furious again
It comes more quickly nowadays
So I think I'll leave the keys in the switch