I met a boy

I met a boy with curious green eyes
They intrigued me, I wanted to know what lay beneath them

I met a boy with soft blonde hair
Silly to the touch, my fingers danced through the strands

I met a boy with a gentle voice
That calmed my erratic thoughts, and voices of self loathing

I met a boy who wanted to understand me
Although I barely can myself, I tried to let him

I met a boy who's desperate to spend time with me
So naturally I panicked and tried to find excuses, because I certainly don't deserve gentle love

I met a boy who dealt with my depression
Although he doesn't understand why I cry and want to kill myself, he soothes me with kind words

I met a boy who was too good for me
So I started arguments, a spark turned into a wildfire, and now I fight with him everyday

I met a boy who made me want to question my loneliness
Yet I push him away, then regret my impulsive actions.

I met a boy that made me fear

Fear falling in love wouldn't be so
awful.