Debt Paid

Crossing the boundary from every direction
That's how I'm set to live
Sex without affection is just a sedative

If you need that badly to sleep?
Come down to my zone, start shit with my peeps!
Every part fits when you're sick for keeps

Hearts split keeping up with the id list
Animal sense, developments that stick
Relevance that intelligence can't kick

I tried departing from this
Chopping my cards, rocking shards
Topping tarts on a lark

Unstoppable art never seemed that hard
But close connection? As just another part
Of human art? Caused me to drop my guard

And fall in love with a married woman
Like a sucker for fate!
Motherfucker, from the beginning

Such was my haste
One touch and I couldn't escape
Love rush crept into me

Thought I was done with my twenties
When I tried making my heart unassailable
Figured anyone truly unavailable

Was someone I could get to grow
Let 'em get to know, feel free
To let the real me show

With no risk of anything that might explode
'Cept a jealous barrel, but I could risk quarrel
Animal passion so my kind of kiss is feral

But the years didn't spare my soul
All those tragic trysts crashed quick
And I repaired the rips with patches

Worn as apparel. To stay warmer
No heart on my sleeve, my love was armor
I could do fine getting into it

But every encounter had a finite limit
That was the spin of a charmer who dealt in sighs
Dwelt too deep in his own lies

Fell for his own heart's disguise
You can't play those games and still be the same
Sooner or later the Great Wheel stops on your name

It's there wherever you're dwelling
Murky rain, dirty brain, muddy mind, bloody climb
Up the stairway to heaven

The Goddess picture, the bodice ripper
Can we just leave it there?
Bare, sex on the stairs?

Or is love unreachable how my debt is squared?