Stay

I heard the whisper.  
My name.  
It was so low...wasn't meant to be uttered..  
Much less recieved.  
An escape of emotion..  
Unplanned.  
To have answered it,  
 
Well it would have been wrong.  
 
But God i wanted to cry out...
Oh God..  
Grieve out his name..  
I held so God damned tight!  
I held so hard on to mine.  
Gripped white knuckles streaked red  deep inside that pillow.  
Lips screwed painfully into..  
One another.  
Leaving my head..  
And heart.  
Winding wild Into storm.  
 
It took an eternity to hear the front door...  
Shut.  
Finally.  
Finality..  
Breaking suddenly me in two.  
And then came shaking wails.  
Moans so alone.  
Desperate..  
Utterly and infinite..  
Could not find the end of it....  
Or any release.. ......  
 
Echos and echos and echos of Fuck!!!  
 
How had he found any, and in my name...  
Whispered.