What The world has made me

I feel weird
Don't know how
It's just the feeling to expire
There is no more desire
No more push
No more point to keep going
I just want to lie with you and watch it snow
The white sky
Looking like the heavens
Yes the place "above"
The place of peace
No worries
No stress
No care
Everything is fair
I have everything I need and want
But it still doesn't make me happy
I feel empty when I'm away from my amazing girl
It makes me want to explode when I can't see her
She is my absolute life, an world
I honestly could not keep going with out her
I really needed her when she came in my life
She took what was emptiness and filled it with her love an care
She makes me feel like I'm worth staying
I can't wait till the time comes where i can hear the birds chirp
The bells ring
Watch peddles fall from the sky
Look at that amazing women in white
Tears from my parents eyes
Not from fear but from joy
Knowing that there son has made it and is going to start his life an family
Knowing they have raised a great kid that will make a difference in his life and the world
One day
I will have the say
One day everyone will see the truth
Truth of what you may ask
The government
Yes the government there is a nasty lie we have been living yes a sin
But we wouldn't know
The government is so good at doing it no one will notice
I notice everything that this ignorant place has done
No it won't be fun
My son will see what I'm saying
And graving but will you
No you will not I won't show it to anyone
I'm just that good ant hiding it
It makes me fake
Wanting to take a step back and restart
This is truly coming from my heart
But history its the past as I said once a time ago
No one will know
My flow of things
The world will sign
If joy , faith in my eyes
What makes me not to ant to die
The one who lies will find out the hard way I'm not playing anymore
No you didn't score I'll just get you in a few hours or days or weeks maybe months
But I will be there to make you cry and want to die
My baby girl will see I'm not immature
I know what I'm doing